I'm going to go off topic today because I've reached a frustration level that is at its boiling point. I'm going to get very personal with you and share something about myself that feels slightly uncomfortable for me. Prior to the birth of my baby boy I exercised 6-7 days a week. I enjoyed doing cardio and weights. I recently went clothes shopping and came home in tears. I can't believe I've gotten to this point! I feel so torn most days because, while I know I'm putting my all into educating my children it leaves little time for me. I'm walking several times a week but, it's nothing like the intense workouts I did before. Does anyone else struggle with this? I want to be ok with this post baby bod but, I admit, I'm not.
This isn't just about my ego. I FEEL different. My joints ache from being less active and carrying around more weight. I'm frequently tired. My back aches. All resulting from less activity. Our bodies are meant to be challenged. As we age, activity and strength training, particularly for women, is so integral to our well being. It doesn't just feel good, it helps keeps us young. Intellectually, I know all of this. It's what drives me to get up at 5am and walk despite rolling into bed at midnight. However, with a thyroid disorder, I think I require more exercise. Unfortunately, I get overwhelmed at the thought of going to the gym. By the evening I'm too tired. If I go in the morning, it would take away from my children's school time since childcare opens at 9am. I can't go then, right at the beginning of our school time! I look forward to this gym membership ending in January because I'm going to join a different gym, as a family, and go with my sons. Does anyone else have a similar dilemma? How do you cope? How do you make time for yourself?
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